I seek to isolate a moment ¬– but my moments are those that exist in the recesses of popular culture. Growing up, the main platform on which I developed my understanding of the world was based in popular culture. More specifically, the movies that would play regularly on HBO in the eighties when cable first became a luxury my parents were finally able to afford. Sitting on the couch with my dad, I would watch hours of action movies featuring Schwarzenegger, Stallone, Willis, Ford and the like. They seemingly celebrated the victory of ordinary men put into extraordinary situations. My memory of them, however, has always been slightly obscured. Many of the films I saw then, I hadn’t revisited until recently. I started to see how misogynistic yet homoerotic they could be, as well as how many of the films slip into racial stereotypes for their villains – many by which still exist – were so arrogantly blatant and mirrored the political climate of the time. It also fed desensitization to violence that has now grown into an appetite that craves films that up the ante.
The work isolates some of the moments often overlooked or forgotten that solidifies many of the constructs that informed my idea of masculinity and my understanding of the world.
By isolating these moments, I hope to access the layers of meaning that exist and often go unnoticed.